Hello 2012

It's been a long year in 2011, so it seems.

That 365 days were moments of ups and downs.

We go through, we learn, we become stronger.

Mistakes I have made, routes I have chosen, words that I have spoken, I can't turn back the time to change anything.

Life goes on.

I wont't be blogging here anymore.

Cheers to a new year and to continue on this life's journey.

God bless!

Chapter after chapter

You begin your chapter called life when you first open your eyes into this world.

The stories you have written for yourself base on your choices, decisions that can lead to moments of learning, opportunities, mistakes, or regrets.

We can't look back, only forward, to begin another chapter when one closes.

Things come, things go...

But one thing for sure, life goes on.

And to go on, takes faith, patience, believe, determination, persistence and courage.

Through this learning journey in life, He never gives up so don't you do so too cause He is always reaching out His hand just that sometimes we just choose to stand on our own feet.

Man cannot hit on the right time to act:
There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens. -Ecclesiastes 3:1

I Am Who I Am

Don't change me.
Don't wanna try being someone I am not..
I can change to be someone I am not
But it is not who I am
Just wanna be me.

Memories

Heart still hurts but it will heal someday..
Till then I would be able to play the melody of memories once again.

Waiting for Daylight

Indeed...

There's no use in crying
There's no point denying
I'm waiting for daylight to come

Do you keep something that doesn't last?

Say for an example a movie ticket. You love to keep them. It could be a habit, a simple collection or to remember a fond memory. But, you know eventually that the text fades and it will be like a blank piece of paper.

Does that make you stop collecting and keeping movie tickets? Or do you continue doing so and just throw them away only when they fade...???

RAWR

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

I REALLY NEED TO STOP BEING SO EMOTIONAL!

WHAT'S HAPPENING!?

Time Management

Ok just when I thought I really need more time in the day.. I saw this in Yahoo!

Practice the following techniques to become the master of your own time:

Tip 1: Carry a schedule and record all your thoughts, conversations and activities for a week. This will help you understand how much you can get done during the course of a day and where your precious moments are going. You'll see how much time is actually spent producing results and how much time is wasted on unproductive thoughts, conversations and actions.

Tip 2: Any activity or conversation that's important to your success should have a time assigned to it. To-do lists get longer and longer to the point where they're unworkable. Appointment books work. Schedule appointments with yourself and create time blocks for high-priority thoughts, conversations, and actions. Schedule when they will begin and end. Have the discipline to keep these appointments.

Tip 3: Plan to spend at least 50 percent of your time engaged in the thoughts, activities and conversations that produce most of your results.

Tip 4: Schedule time for interruptions. Plan time to be pulled away from what you're doing. Take, for instance, the concept of having "office hours." Isn't "office hours" another way of saying "planned interruptions?"

Tip 5: Take the first 30 minutes of every day to plan your day. Don't start your day until you complete your time plan. The most important time of your day is the time you schedule to schedule time.

Tip 6: Take five minutes before every call and task to decide what result you want to attain. This will help you know what success looks like before you start. And it will also slow time down. Take five minutes after each call and activity to determine whether your desired result was achieved. If not, what was missing? How do you put what's missing in your next call or activity?

Tip 7: Put up a "Do not disturb" sign when you absolutely have to get work done.

Tip 8: Practice not answering the phone just because it's ringing and e-mails just because they show up. Disconnect instant messaging.

Tip 9: Don't instantly give people your attention unless it's absolutely crucial in your business to offer an immediate human response. Instead, schedule a time to answer email and return phone calls.

Tip 10: Block out other distractions like Facebook and other forms of social media unless you use these tools to generate business.

IGNORE CLOCK TIME, REAL TIME IS WHAT MATTERS!

Can't find the right words to say

The 2 over months felt like 2 over years.

Looking back, it's like going through both the stormy weather and the bright sunshine days.

What was said yesterday scares me but with that said, I was kinda touched to tears. Never felt like this before.

If happiness is all that matters, what's stopping you?

The haunt

Manage to catch some sleep but didn't felt good cause I knew I had a nightmare. A nightmare I can't remember and I don't wish to remember.

I never watched a dramatic movie that felt so real before. Something close to my heart.

How it hurts when I see what's happening in the story being so true and it's like happening right before my very eyes.

It's scary when you tear not for the sad or touching storyline but you tear for the familarity and similarity of the past and current and perhaps even the unforeseen future.

Yes, I admit I am affected. As much as I want to push these negative thoughts away, it is haunting me once again.

WTF

I don't know wtf I was thinking or doing?

I have to admit I am feeling scared..

In times like this...

It feels like a long day.

Working the morning shift, followed by staff meeting and then suddenly there seems to be so much things to do again. Cleared as much administrative work as I can before heading to Jer's to pass him my passport for the trip and then found myself having dinner there.. Next off to RC Centre to collect some tix and then I found myself chatting with my VC till 10pm.

Dad came to pick me up and that's where everything started. I found out I caused my brother $500 and maybe a deal gone or something.. and I was very affected about it. It had to start with someone, and it was obvious that the fingers were pointing at me. I wasn't happy with my dad's approach on the matter and knowing I had a long day, my emotions got the better of me..

Slammed everything on the floor, stomped to my bro's room and told him straight I will pay for his losses.. and then I just broke down in tears..

But through it all, my bro didn't blame me. In fact he knew I would get affected about it and told my dad not to say anything first. He knew I had issues at work and he took the opportunity to talk to me too.

He said God made this happen for a reason and he is thankful for that. He admitted he never really was there for me and if "$500" can give him a 1 hour talk with me, he said it was totally worth it. Omgggosh.. just make me cry even more...

He quoted and shared on my fb wall:
The truth of the matter is that there's nothing you can't accomplish if: (1) You clearly decide what it is that you're absolutely committed to achieving, (2) You're willing to take massive action, (3) You notice what's working or not, and (4) You continue to change your approach until you achieve what you want, using whatever life gives you along the way.” - Anthony Robbins

Love you bro, no matter what.

True meaning and purpose buried deep down

It has been a turn of events I must say.

A change for the future.

Uncertainties ahead but slowing unfolding..

Mixed feelings, as some say, being happy that there is now an alternate voice for the people, and sad because Singapore lost 2 very humble and important figures.

Personally felt that Minister George Yeo contributed a lot to the nation and really listened to the residents at the ground level. And Mr Zainul Abidin bin Mohamed Rasheed, a truly nice and humble man. Don't really have the opportunity to really know him but you just get that warm feeling when you are around him. You sense his honesty and sincerity deep down..

Anyway, that aside, I am feel the inner sadness. For the true meaning and purpose of bringing people together from all walks of life, helping the needy, caring for the well-being of the ageing population etc.. All has been lost in a "battleground."

Being in the organisation and knowing that the beginning of its intention was for the good of all people in Singapore, you feel upset. When you see politics coming into play, people choose sides, support them and objectives and aims gets blurred. Slowly, it becomes protecting of self-interests and ambitions. Then you ask, what happen to the true meaning and purpose?

Why do people have to make a clear stand of support to a particular side where the aim is to be coming together to serve the people with a heart and not make things difficult for each other to carry out the objectives?

Just like with fun, merry, joy and presents at the end of the year, the true meaning of Christmas is buried in people's hearts...

Where's the love?

Strangers, again

Strangers, again

As much as I hate this video, I love it...

Stages..

1)Meeting
2)The Chase
3)Honeymoon
4)Comfortable
5)Tolerance
6)Downhill
7)Breaking up

Who said it was easy?

Seriously.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. it's not just about one...

No one is perfect and there's no such thing as the right one.

It is how you make it work... for life...

I did tear when I watch this.. Not gonna lie..

"I think that if life separates us, and we end up in totally different places.. we will always remember when our past are like in this period of time and I will be thankful for that. And hope that wherever you are, you will be thankful too.. I think that's the best we can wish for..."

April

The month of April is Filled with birthdays! With that said it also goes to show that more money will be coming out of the pocket!

Well positively speaking let's just say it's the season of giving. When someone is surprised and happy, you feel good and happy too :).

So what are u waiting for?! Get me a present today!

Roller Coaster

Ok think I was harsh.. but the anger did get the better of me..

I guess at least I had a good sleep yesterday. It was the first night in weeks that I had enough sleep without thinking..

It has been a long roller-coaster ride..

Will it end in the way it should be?

Black and White

Totally spent a bomb today.

$295.47 on shoes and mostly presents.

Retail therapy does work and mum was with me for it. :D

Beneath the smile
Lies something much more
So much I can only take
But more things add on
I am tired...
Really tired...

Black or white.

Cuts like a knife

It pains me to have come to decision
As sudden to him
But as clear to me
Feel that I am slowly losing everything

It hurts me
Cuts like a knife
I am afraid
Don't know what I am thinking anymore...

Time of my life that everything is going downhill

Into my head

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How long will it take to let it go?

Surreal

The heart that feels
The mind that complicates
The words unspoken
Are left unsaid
The truth in you
Remains hidden
You don't know how
or why all these happen
It sinks in deep
You give it thought
You ask yourself
Could this be at all