Overwhelming Feelings

Overwhelmed by negative feelings...

WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL HERE!?

Why am I holding on?

Why?

Stayed strong, determined to see through this but I am getting so tired and to the point of raising the white flag..yet again..

:(

B for Busy

Ok busy times are here.

4 consecutive PM Shifts in a row. Dead tired.

Good thing to look forward to are the weekends. Will be away for a short trip to Penang with my awesome girls! :)

But after my the trip, back to more shit...

Time Management

Ok just when I thought I really need more time in the day.. I saw this in Yahoo!

Practice the following techniques to become the master of your own time:

Tip 1: Carry a schedule and record all your thoughts, conversations and activities for a week. This will help you understand how much you can get done during the course of a day and where your precious moments are going. You'll see how much time is actually spent producing results and how much time is wasted on unproductive thoughts, conversations and actions.

Tip 2: Any activity or conversation that's important to your success should have a time assigned to it. To-do lists get longer and longer to the point where they're unworkable. Appointment books work. Schedule appointments with yourself and create time blocks for high-priority thoughts, conversations, and actions. Schedule when they will begin and end. Have the discipline to keep these appointments.

Tip 3: Plan to spend at least 50 percent of your time engaged in the thoughts, activities and conversations that produce most of your results.

Tip 4: Schedule time for interruptions. Plan time to be pulled away from what you're doing. Take, for instance, the concept of having "office hours." Isn't "office hours" another way of saying "planned interruptions?"

Tip 5: Take the first 30 minutes of every day to plan your day. Don't start your day until you complete your time plan. The most important time of your day is the time you schedule to schedule time.

Tip 6: Take five minutes before every call and task to decide what result you want to attain. This will help you know what success looks like before you start. And it will also slow time down. Take five minutes after each call and activity to determine whether your desired result was achieved. If not, what was missing? How do you put what's missing in your next call or activity?

Tip 7: Put up a "Do not disturb" sign when you absolutely have to get work done.

Tip 8: Practice not answering the phone just because it's ringing and e-mails just because they show up. Disconnect instant messaging.

Tip 9: Don't instantly give people your attention unless it's absolutely crucial in your business to offer an immediate human response. Instead, schedule a time to answer email and return phone calls.

Tip 10: Block out other distractions like Facebook and other forms of social media unless you use these tools to generate business.

IGNORE CLOCK TIME, REAL TIME IS WHAT MATTERS!

Walk Walk Walk

General Elections.

PA.

PAP.

Opposition.

Walkabouts.

Walks.

Walks.

And walks.

Legs are aching.

Left shoulder blade hurts.

7 May and all these will be over.

Feels like a long day

Woke up at about 7am to go to NACLI at South Buona Vista... O M G.

Thought could just sit in and rot.. but ended up there was a task to be a table host to new community leaders. Had 3 rounds of questions and I had to facilitate the discussion..

Then came back to CC for Minister Walkabout / Group Walkabout with the MPs. O M G.

Dead tired..

So much walking...

What a long day

Woke up at 6.40am today. Totally feels when I was back in primary school when I have to wake up that early.

8am to reach NACLI for the 2015 Workplan Seminar and then back to CC for a staff meeting.

Guess what? Totally ownaged.. Most of us got shot down...

It's gonna be a busy week, or should I say month... nono, maybe it's the year.

So many things to do, so little time.

What's new?

Will be working at home tomorrow too although it's my off day.

On this day...

Dreams are a succession of images, ideas, emotions and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.

It will be absolutely weird if the definition uses "voluntarily" instead.

Been having weird dreams, I don't know why.

Too much thoughts I guess. Combination of work, friends, self.

*Slaps*

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Somehow I got struck by a tweet.

Ever since the start of the year, I already felt this sense of great tiredness and dread to what I am doing. I can confidently say that the heart is not longer there anymore. The way thinks work and the way things are, some are ridiculously hard to accept.

It is true that it is the cross I have to bear now but I am sensing it is time to move on soon.

Live with it or make the change.

Some peace, please?

Second day of Chinese New Year and what do I experience?

Dealing with work issues on a public holiday really sucks. I really don't understand why things can turn out this way.

Why do you people have to rely so much on the staff sometimes?

You don't see what we are doing at the backend or stuff we are handling on hand. And why must things happen first and then you come questioning on the wrongs when all you could do was simply ask beforehand?

So many of you, and just a staff to a commitee, can't you all be more supportive and help out just a tiny bit?

AND $*(#&*($#&*($# for goodness sake, be a MAN and FACE the problem and not PUSH the responsibility to the staff to clean your butt!

It gets tiring when all these shit happens over and over again.

Why do I have to apologise for something that isn't entirely my fault?

It irks, frustrates and angers me.

Yes, there are bound to have all kinds of shit at work, but this, I can't take.

My known tolerance and boiling point has almost reached its limit due to a build up of events.

And then... I really don't know what regretful action I might do...

GIMME A BREAK!

AARGH!

All around you

Even after work, you still see things involving work!

Banners of River Hongbao..

Chingay...

The Istana... CNY Garden Party

Then as we were walking.. Yi Li said "Minute Maid" as she saw it near a convenience store.

OMG!?!?!

SPEECHLESS.

Everywhere I go, I see PA.

*Faints*

Mid Jan

Ok it's almost Mid Jan and I can't find that motivation in me to keep myself going.

That sense of restlessness is still in me and it's not helping at all.

More things are incoming so COME ON CHERYL, YOU NEED TO GET THAT ENERGY BACK!

Zzzzz off day tomorrow but there's RC meeting at 8pm but gonna spend the day with Jammy. :)

The Holiday Mood

As usual think I have said this many times before... where do I start?

It's been 4 months working as a Constituency Manager. (yes.. they deleted the "Assistant" in front but what's the point? It's just a title, not like I got some pay increase.. :o) And.. even been through the 8 days induction programme that every PA newbie goes through.

The induction was a great learning experience. From fun, late nights, suppers, project discussions, lectures, the outdoor cooking gone wrong, games, morning exercises, phototaking and simply bonding with fellow cohort mates.. it's gonna be a memory that will last forever. :)

It definitely made me know about the organisation better. Picked up things that was useful and may even apply to my job.

Challenges you face makes you a stronger person. Overcoming certain issues can be tough but somehow it makes you determined to turn the tide around. And when it does, you just feel that sense of achievement.

Well, being back at the office isn't good at this point due to feeling lazy-ish. Perhaps 8 days being away from work makes you feel that way and I was also away for another 2 days to Malacca. How nice.. it just increased my holiday-mood indicator to HIGH. Nevertheless, had great food there. Peranakan food is awesome! :D~

Work is slowing down now.. it being the end of the year but yet it is still piling up like in slow-mo. Somehow if I don't speed up, it's all going to collaspe down on me which is a definite no-no. I need some energy boost that will keep be going. With Christmas coming, gosh, it's not helping. But I am EXCITED as it's my FAVOURITE time of the year, a day I always look forward to. Talking about that, I am going to hunt for christmas prezzies tomorrow.

Time is really not enough, seriously. I said this before but honestly with this job, it robs your time away. I really miss learning something new once in a while, meeting with friends regularly, going out to take shots with my Nikon D90, spending weekends with the family and playing sports on a regular basis.. It's just not the same anymore..

Will things get better? I wonder 1 year from now, what will I be doing?

For now, let's just prepare for a joyous christmas season with love ones and friends and thank God for them. :)

And so I say...

Time hasn't been enough for me. Feel like I have been stretched for the past week..

I have sacrificed family time, meeting friends and intercessory meetings. Even if I've got an off day, I only feel like resting at home and to have some time for myself.

So much information in my mind lately and I admit making mistakes. I am not doing for the sake of doing it, but I want to do it well. But so much thinking has caused me disturbed sleep. I am the kind of person that hates making mistakes, big or small, and I know that's a bad thing cause you only learn through making them. But me being me, I always feel so affected when mistakes happen.

Sometimes I think.. is it worth it going the extra mile?

Maybe it's just me and my low-morale day. Who likes working on their off day? I really got to get use to this life now.

Work aside, always feel happy spending time with love ones. Even if it means just a few minutes.

Accompanied my Grandmother yesterday afternoon. Said that she wanted to go to the atm, and buy some stuff. She wanted to get a Silkygirl perfume. Went to the nearby Guardian to get it and I bought it for her. Feel happy seeing the smile on her face. :)

After a long or terrible day, I can always find comfort from my love-ones.. and not forgetting the One above that never fails to give me strength..

Once a year, with love ones so Dear

Work was crazy last week. Was preparing for a big Mid Autumn festival event handed over to me quite unexpectedly. All the stuff was pretty much settled but I wasn't prepared to handle something so soon...

And in the midst, I found myself doing compliation for an urgent report, which literally made me do a full shift and OT for a few days. Partly cos there were the addition of other ad-hoc stuff and follow ups to do.. even my OFF day kinda vanished as I had to go back to settle stuff.

Well no complains, I really got to get use to this working life now. You still feel great satisfaction once you clear your work.

JIAYOU.

Work aside, got to enjoy 2 days during my birthday off and off day.

24th Sept with Jammy! ^^

Had dinner at Jewel Box, Empress Jade @ Mt Faber. Expensive... but it's more for the ambience and service.

Grrr.. uploading pics seem to have problems now. Guess I will upload another day.

Received an awesome present hand-made which was priceless. To end the great day was also cake cutting at 12 midnight. I was amazed that Polar actually have Little Twin Stars cake. Quite uncommon, I feel.

Thanks Dearie for the wonderful day.

25th Sept! With my family!

YUM CHA at SGCC! Great food and time spent with all. Cake cutting back at home.

Thank you to all my dear friends for the birthday wishes as well. Sorry I haven't got time to meet up but hopefully we can catch up soon.

I am happy. :)

The Decision

About 5 months temping at Punggol CC and it has finally come to an end.

Sometimes I wonder what exactly am I doing. With a degree qualification, I am cutting tickets, answering phonecalls, serving customers where I could actually be at a position with greater responsibilities and commitments.

But somehow, God seems to be putting me at a humble position to make me learn and see. To see a bigger picture from the bottom just like how we sometimes look up to the sky and realise it's such a big world out there.

I still don't know exactly what He wants me to see but somehow I feel I am getting there. It just flows like the river and when you get to your destination, you know that's where exactly you want to be.

I am thankful for the experience at Punggol CC and most importantly, the friendships found and will never be forgotten. It may be the last of us as colleagues, but not the last as friends. :)

Where I will go, nobody knows. As much as the signs tell me I am not going back, there's still a little hope. There's a decision I can make that can result in 2 possible outcomes.. Will I take that risk?

I can think so much but only do that much and I realise God has already decided for me..

A smile

It was a busy morning today. Well, you can expect that if you are all alone at the counter. A customer walks in, asks about courses and just at the same time, another walks in to apply the Passion Card. And oh wow coincidentally, the phone rings. Just great! Of course, it was still manageable. It being a Wednesday morning, a day that isn't jam-packed with courses, I could still cope. Believe me, I had been through busier times that can really make you panic!

BUT busy time aside, the worse thing is that you are denied your right to go to the... TOILET!

Anyway, the day got really boring. A few days ago, I found out I got to print 800 tickets ready, and not forgetting to cut them accordingly.

Well oh well, in the midst of the boring cutting, it somehow made me wanna do something. It was a sudden thought to visit Jammy after work. I know that it's his busy period and why not give him a pleasant surprise!?

So off I go after work, bought donuts from Donut Empire and travelled down to make a special delivery.

Hope it brought a smile to him for the happy food I brought.

I seriously love giving surprises because once you see a smile on the person's face, it makes you smile too. :)

Try it, spread the smile today! ;)

Never expected

How strange.

Never did I expect I would go for an interview today at the People's Association.

Has temp-ing in Punggol CC for over 3 months made me lose my mind?

I talk about not really liking shift work and working on weekends but yet I was actually filling up an application form last night.

It's interesting meeting new people, not a deskbound job and I guess it's a good training platform for me to improve. But of course, I know the reality of it is that it will not easy. Faced with challenges and unknowns and no one really likes uncertainty.

And for my first ever interview today, I faced 5 interviewers. Lucky the main interviewer was friendly and it made the setting more comfortable. Whether I get the job is one story, and posting to which CC is another.

Whatever it is, I made my decision to go for it and I want to do my best.

GOGOGO!

Good Evening

Good evening, Punggol CC, Cheryl speaking, how may I help?

Haha call me at Punggol CC now and this is what you will hear.

Pretty fast.. think I have worked here for about 3 weeks already? This job has really made me see what is it like being in the front-line. You not only deal with customers, you also assist managers and executives here. And if I do work permanently, you have additional committees and grassroot leaders to work with. Not that easy!

Just about 2 more months of temping and I am off to UK.

Jel smsed me whether I was interested in going to Kenya and I had the shock of my life. It was a strange mix of excitment, confusion and OMG-WHAT-THE- feeling. I really told her I need to rob the bank for that and I got to get pass parent's approval. What's more I really hope to go for WYD 2010 in Madrid, Spain. What are they going to think?

I am a graduate and many have already asked me wth am I doing all this while. But seriously, I have no regrets doing temp jobs. It is through the simple tasks you do that you get to see the bigger picture.

In the past, you talk about getting that dream job, doing what you like and following your passion. Now I can say that all those belong to an idealistic world. When I am back from UK, I am going to go for any jobs that have a career path for me. That's all I ask for. As what Clarice say, passion will be your hobby and your life but not your job.

Welcome to reality.

Telok Blangah CC

I am actually blogging at work. Lol. Well not like I care anyway because it will be my last day here at Telok Blangah CC.

Travelling here isn't convenient. Fastest way is to take a bus to Serangoon MRT, go all the way to Harbourfront and then take another bus in. It is the fastest, but I feel that it is troublesome and much more walking to do.

Took an alternative route which is taking a bus to Serangoon interchange and then taking bus 100 all the way to Telok Blangah Road. Well really a long way but minimal walking distance. And did I mention that twice I stopped at the wrong bus stop? Like OMG. Yesterday I overshot and today I stopped too early. -_-" You wouldn't like walking in the noon-time heat.

Anyway, will be posted to Punggol CC on Monday which is so much nearer. Didn't hear much good stuff there but I guess I will ENDURE whatever shit that comes to me hopefully till April. I just need the extra $$$ for my trip to UK.

Lol being in customer service and serving the community, you meet all sorts of people. It can spoil your day or bring you entertainment. Of course you would prefer the latter. For instance, yesterday one indian lady came in to ask whether she can pluck mango leaves.

Oh by the way, working afternoon shifts make the day so long. I am counting down to 10pm now.

Dear God, please make the time go faster.